Hey readers, checked thru pageview, there are still people viewing my blog!
hahah good job readers :P and sorry that I don't blog often. hehehe.

so today, im gonna blog about the meaning behind my given name.
i don't know if it's totally true and if this 'meaning of name' source is reliable.
but it definitely has some links. hahaha.

so here it is, from astrocentr web.
(went to find something else and found this.)

1. KAILI
Means a deity.

Destiny number - 6 (24) - Numerological number

The number 6 Destiny suggests that the direction of growth in her lifetime will be toward a greater sense of responsibility, love, and balance.

Development in life must make Kaili more helpful, conscientious, and capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation.

 

Kaili must be a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need.

Kaili have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged.

As the saying goes, charity begins at home, and the home is where Kaili must be a special person.

The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent, and one who is often deeply involved in domestic activities.

Openness and honesty is apparent in her approach to all relationships, particularly close family relationship.

 

A happy home life is the goal of Destiny 6,

and if Kaili live up to the promises of this number,

Kaili will reap this reward most likely with some degree of luxury and grace.

Although Kaili may have considerable creative and artistic talents,

the chances are that Kaili will devote herself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the home and of the community at large.

 

The destiny of the 6 is often a career in medicine, welfare work, education, dealing in the arts, furniture, decorating, landscaping, home construction, religious endeavors, or scientific fields.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that Kaili is very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others.

Kaili have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity.

 

If there is an excess of the number 6 in her makeup,

Kaili may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number.

This can include stubbornness, self-righteousness, or dominance.

There may be a tendency for Kaili to be too exacting and demanding of herself, too.

In this regard, Kaili may at times sacrifice herself (or her loved ones) for the welfare of others.

Many with the Destiny of the number 6 worry much too much.

In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering.

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Kong Kai Li
20 May 1995

Soul Urge number - 2 (11) - Full name number
With a 2 Soul Urge, Kaili have a deep inner need for love and harmony in her life.
Resolving problems using mediation and diplomacy produces a warm sense of achievement.
When Kaili avoid the pain of stress and conflict, Kaili is well on the road of feeling fulfilled.



Inner Dreams number - 1 (10) - Full name number
Kaili dream of being a leader and one who is in charge.
Kaili want to be known for her courage, daring and original ideas.
Kaili seek unconquered heights and people may get a first impression that Kaili is very aggressive.

 

I miss 2/1. And all the awesome classmates I used to have.
HAHA, AND I MISS MRS SELVAN ^^

Hey readers, maybe just reader. haha. since my blog is sooooo dead.
anyways, i just have a feeling to post recently, like yesterday and today.
oh well, so here i am trying to post a long post.
it's easy in th past, cause i blogged almost everyday, but now, i am too lazy. haha.

alright, i went to sent my brother to Puala Tekong for his enlist this morning.
it just striked me that time really flies.
in a blink of an eye, we're teenagers/young adults.
soon, we will have wrinkles and all, sounds scary huh~

when we reached Puala Tekong, we were asked to split up with th recruits.
so we went another way, the journey was boring. hahaa~
like hear all their talks and so on, and i even hoped that i didn't even go. :X
was looking around for Daniel or any other friends whom I may know, but i didn't see any.
oh yeah, th ferry was.. my goodness. i can still feel myself rocking. *dizzy*

after 3hours, we're allowed to have lunch with the recruits and then bid our farewell.
the picking up of recruits was super hilarious.
i literally laughed out infront of th officers. hah :P
it's like over 200 recruits standing in two straight rows and you have to pick th "culprit".
so we picked up my bro and went for lunch.
and after lunch, when we bid our farewell and watch him march off was th worst feeling of th day.
it's like its-time-to-let-him-go feeling.
felt tears in my eyes but i did not cry. hahaha.
my little sis cried badly, like th whole journey back and then just now, she cried agn.
i bet when my bro calls back at 930pm, she will cry agn.
and i know her lines already. "Korkor, sobsobs. I miss you. sobsobs."
she always says that, even if it's just 1 week camp/overseas. LOL.

after that, i really feel th sadness rising up when my bro waved at us and left.
my mum kept waving back even after he has marched in. it shows how 舍不得 is she.
and my dad kept reminding my bro to listen to th commanders' order.
i just waved and my sis didn't waved back cause she's busy crying. haha.

oh ya! we're supposed to write a letter to my bro on 26 May.
it is meant to not let him know, hahah!
i'll make sure his letter is the nicest among all his mates.
and with stickers, encouragement and lots of love! ^^
(will take a picture and post after I have wrote it~)

it feels like it's just yesterday that we went to school together and so on,
so fast....
our first home was in Hougang.
my brother went to th kindergarden there for 2 years and we shifted house to Marsling.
he completed his kindergarten in Marsling while I only studied in th kindergarden for a year.
we shifted house again, to Woodlands. And I completed my kindergarten here.
when I was in k2, then my sis was born. hahaa.
yeah, my sister is smaller than me by 6 years and is smaller than my bro by 8 years.

We went to th same school, Qihua Pri, where my bro and I went to th same cca. Table tennis.
I didn't like the cca because th coach only focuses on trained players.
moreover, I went to that cca because my mum wants me to.
my brother and I will skip cca and we will go to th school library together.
we were like 'partners-in-crime'.

although we quarrel and argue like any siblings will do,
i would say we were really close.
when we were young, he will bring home a sweet that his teacher gave him and we will share it.
cause he's more quiet and I am more outspoken, i tend to protect him a lot.
(like in pri sch, when ppl bullies him. or when we're out to play)

until now, long-distant relatives or my parent's friend still thinks that I am th older sister.
'cause he follows me wherever I go.
especially in awkward situation like my relatives' house.
we'll just stick to one another and chat our way through.
next week, i am going to a cousin's wedding. i believed it would be so different without him.

either way, I know God will place His mighty hand upon my brother
and I am sure my brother is able to overcome this "obstacle" in his life.
I really hope that thru this 2 years, he will learn, and grow up into a man.
a man whom everyone can respect and look up to.
really hope that he will get a good buddy, and will not use all th vulgarities commanders use.
i mean, i really don't like people who use rude words.
it reflects badly about them to me, really.

I trust God and I know He will protect my brother. :)
'cause there's nothing He can't do.
praise the Lord!

okay, shall wait for my brother's call now.
till we see agn,
take care!

Hey all, it's been 3 months since I blogged and I guess no one reads my blog now. hahaha.
so my first greeting is.. how are you?

As I was reading through my previous few post,
I am really surprised and got reminded of the old good and bad times in the past. :)
ohwell, came online to express some kind of thoughts today.

first, I've to admit that I am very scared.
let's put it this way. M, O and C
person O used to talk to me cause O finds me fun to chat with.
After person M knows that I am friend with person O,
person M told person O about something that was not true
and then person O started looking at me at a different view.
I admit that I was kinda pissed by person O since person O is so naive to believe whatever person M says.
but i didn't bother anyway, cause both person M and O aren't important.
so whatever person M might tells O and what person O might think doesn't concerns me.
yes, doesn't concern me at all.

recently, there was this person C.
i just got to know that person O and person C are kinda close friends.
and because of person O, i couldn't show that i am a friend of person C.
'cause I am afraid that person O might tell person C some false things and then history repeats itself.
I don't mind history to repeat itself as long as I have a clear conscience.
but i can't allow it to happen cause person C is so-much-more-impt than person O.

whatever person O think of me and say about me are none of my buisness.
but whatever person C might think of me makes me really scare.

I know I can't do anything but just pray, pray and pray.
I know God is in control of what person C may hear and what person C might believe.
I trust God.

I don't know. Recently I had been not-myself anymore.
I don't like to text, I don't like to sit with friends.
I just wana be alone.

Was finding someone I can tell for what had been in my mind,
but can't find any.. Actually got a few but I don't wana bother them.
I know I still will be fine, so no point bothering them.
today, I just don't feel like doing anything.

I feel very pathetic.
I am very confused. :'(
If only any one of you just know what cuts my heart. Sigh..
rpscseni, if only you really read me as a book.
HAIIS, bye.

Some kind of 'language', we use today.
P stands for proper Eng and N stands of th Eng we use now.
sit back and enjoy! :D

P: Can you or can you not do this?
N: Can ah?

P: Yes.
N: Can lah...

P: Yes, can.
N: Can leh...

P: I think so.
N: Can lo...

P: Are you sure?
N: Can hah?

P: Do you know whether this can be done?
N: Can hor?

P: Are you certain?
N: Can meh?

p/s: hope you enjoy it!
bye :)

I came online with a smile cause I finished my homeworks,
but when I came online, I saw something that really broke my heart.
and that is why I post the picture above.

I don't know how many of you still reads my blog, but it's okay..
I just wana express myself and not impress anyone with my blog.
so this is how it goes...

it's been long since I came online because im now using wifi instead of comp.
and when i use wifi, i do not check my email.
out of th blue, i on-ed my comp and checked my mails.
to my surprise, she actually invited me to view her blog.
it's been 5years since I've known her and I never once did my part.
it's been 2 years since she blogged and few days ago was th only time she invited me.
she's older than me, so I had always assumed that she's good, she's fine, nothing's troubling her.

I clicked and read it.
the first post I read already broke my heart.
then, I saw my name on one of her post and I read it, it really teared me up.
I don't know.. like all that she has missed on my past and
all that I've missed cause I didn't cherish her in th past.
I hope I can do all I could rewind back th time, and this time, i'll do a better job.

That kind of feeling, cannot be described.
I really thank God that Im so much closer to her now.
though I may not be able to see her any sooner, I will continue to check on her.
though she might not say anything, though she might look unbeatable.
I'm still gonna check on her.

Lord, I really thank You for this opportunity.
thank You for teaching me another lesson today.
I can't thank You enough.

HEYYO READERS!
Wishing you people a blessed lunar new year! :D
and yes, I am in msia right now :)

basically, woke up today, started to dress up fr CNY
'cause all of my cousins are very good at dressing up..
*cant lose to them in chinese new year!*
and i took a lot more photo this tym round.. haha.
a lot self-shot too xD

after dressing up, we went to msia to 'bai nian'.
first stop, grandma's hse!
every year, we were th first to reach but this year, we were the second..
heh, th 3rd was following closely.. arnd 10mins..
after tht we had reunion lunch..
annual thing, children will sit with children and
th adults will sit with th adults..
FELLOWSHIP! :D

second stop, grandfather-brother's house.
had a lot of fun catching up with my cousins.. :)
and of course ANG BAO! ;P

third stop, aunt's house.
here, both happy and sad thing happened.
sad thing, one aunt said that im fat.. :( gahh, gotta lose more fats!
happy thing, another aunt say my smile very sweet! Muhahaha xD
and I received an ang bao here! ^^

forth stop, back to grandma's hse for lion dance.
quite cool uh, a lot of people came to our hse just to see th lion dance..
th lion threw one orange and it hit my-vain-little-handsome-cousin's white jeans.
after that he was so pissed thru out th whole day..
and I went to make him happy, really smart Kai Li! :P


fifth stop, my handsome cousin's house.
he's still really handsome despite he's now a dad of two kid.
he got married when im like.. sec2 end.. :(
still remembered me getting so upset bout it th other time. haha!
so today when i went to his house, i played with his children.
really cute, just like him! :)
like father, like son! ^^

sixth stop, back to my grandma's house.
played fireworks and firecrackers with cousin..
awesome much! :)

this year slightly different... :/
every year i will quickly go online and chat with some tht is in spore
'cause i cant use phone.. but this year i don't.
no people missing me in spore and i missed nobody in spore. LOL
good thing i guess, cause i started to be more like myself.
and here am I.. posting ^^

i've spent my day 1 wisely,
thank God for everything that has happened today, good or bad. :)
so.. how's your day 1? :)


p/s: photos will be up soon! :)

HEY. here am I posting with a mask!
tomorrow is 1st day of CNY and im heading to msia to enjoy myself.
yayhooo~ so now, i have a sudden crave to post random notes of appreciation to random people.
SPOT FOR YOURS OKAY :)
*not in any sequence.

#1:
I could search an entire dictionary and not find the words to describe how wonderful you are.
I could say a thousand of words, and never truly express how much you mean to me.
I could find ten thousand four leaf clovers,
and still not have enough luck to ever find someone half as perfect as you.
I could search every art museum, but never find anything as beautiful as you are.
I could smile until my cheeks ache, but never show you how happy I am to be with you.

Times may be tough for you right now, but let’s just put it this way..
Maybe the reason why you have to go through all these things is
because God is preparing you for something bigger.
How will you be able to handle something like that if
small problems make you want to give up already? :)

You can always guess what I am trying to say.. If you can..


#2:
You don't know how much you managed to cheer me up today..
though I am not very close to you,
but I am really glad that you spent th whole day 'celebrating' new year eve with me.
You can definitely see that this year CNY is not fun for me,
but you definitely made a difference, thank you very much! :)

#3: In our life, It’s very rare to find someone who plans to stay in your life,
I hate people who’s going to get close to you then they fade away, it sucks.

You faded away differently, and im trying my best to work it out agn.
Whether or not it will work out, it all depend on the Lord.
And whatever He says, is whatever i'll listen..

#4: Wherever you go, i’ll make new friends.
But old friends(you) will always have a special place in my heart.
I’ll always love those who have stayed with me through thick and thin.
Those who, when they see me cry, can laugh at me and I wouldn’t really mind.
Those who, up to this day, can still name all the teachers I hated.
Those who know the most random facts about me, the insect I hate most,
where I got a certain scar, or the funniest joke that is only between th both of us.
Those who know the kind of things I wouldn’t really share to a new friend
'cause it’s either too embarrassing or too personal.

It can be so easy to forget you
‘cause I have new ones and you also have more people you could hang out with.
but I don’t ever plan to make you feel that im taking you for granted
just because I have new people in your life. :)

#5:
Sometimes I wish I could change your life for the better.
Or just make certain things disappear so they could no longer cause pain to you.
It hurts whenever I see a person I love suffer because of things we both have no control over.

It's 10pm and my dad just got home from work.
so.. this post is sort of dedicated to my dad. :)

My question today is.. Who is dad?

A dad is someone who wants to catch you before you fall,
but instead picks you up, brushes you off, and let you try again.
He is someone who wants to keep you from making your mistakes
so that you can learn it your way, even tho his heart breaks in silence when you got hurt.

A dad is someone who will do what he thinks is th best fr you when you cry,
who will always be there when you need him,
he will scold you when you break the rules,
shines when you succeed, the one who will always have faith
and th one who stills believe in you when you fail.

A dad is someone who works till dust, come home and still offer you th good food.
he takes all th leftovers that you don't wana eat so that you can enjoy a better meal.
A dad is someone who love his family so much.

I thank You Lord, for my family.
dad, mum, bro and sis. 'cause they're equally impt to me. :)
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Lord, i know, in this world, there are still less fortunate families.
kids without their parents and so on.
Lord, please help me to understand them more and help them more in any ways that i can.
i want to make a difference in their life, for Your glory.
i want to be different, because i am Your child.
Lord, remind me. remind me to be nice in all sorts of ways.